florence can make anything better.
i’ve taken a clue from b.f. skinner, i am a victim of operant conditioning.
if what he has told us that if B continuously follows A, then whenever A occurs, we learn to expect B, even if there is no definite connection between the two. Skinner’s own trials done with dogs are useless here, I will use a much more relevant one, watch (but excuse the poor quality).
now as i wake up from a 12 hour sleep, feeling lethargic and angry at myself, i realize that every time A has happened to me, B has happened. yes there are much more variations than a simple expectation of an altoid, BUT the song remains the same. A keeps happening, and it always ends badly, so it has become programmed in my mind, that since A has occurred, B is inevitable. So I have sub-consciously thought, why wait? why wait for B to creep up on me from behind, when i can bring it about myself? so the self-sabotage has ensued and i’ve woken up feeling like an idiot and all i really want is to go back to sleep for another 12 hours, or maybe a few more, until it is time to go to work tomorrow morning.
when you’re ready, just say you’re ready/ when all the baggage just ain’t as heavy/ and the party’s over, just don’t forget me/ we’ll change the pace and just go slow
